Why of all people me?

Out of all the people in the world, why do I have to be the one who is so, as I call it, scared of drinking and alcohol? It gets to the point where it affects relationships that I'm in, and I'm getting sick of it. I don't know what to do. My girlfriend dropped the whole drinking thing when we started dating, which is great, but I know she wants to still drink, she has told me this. To me, it kills me, and makes me want make her stop for the sake that it is stupid, not for me. I just don't understand it at all. *sigh* I hate this! Just... make it go away...

I don't even know what I'm like this either. I never had an abusive drunken mother/father. The only solution is the 9 years I was enslaved at St.Mary's Elementary School. I just want it gone...